Hello Lettuce Heads!
I want to share something intimate, something vulnerable, today. I know I enjoy blogging, but more often than not, I dont slow down enough to understand why I do the things I do. This morning, writing this blog, I ended up with some time to find out why. As I prepared the pictures of my weekend and brainstormed on what I wanted to touch on this week, it all came to me. I had a bit of a fit on Saturday night and Sunday evening, unleashing some frustration and sour feelings, anger, unkind words, all on loved ones. I was pent up, had things on my mind, left concerns stewing. After speaking to said loved ones, I realized that I dont give myself enough credit for how good of a communicator I can be, how good of a delegator I am, and how much I deserve love not just from myself, but all those around me. Ive got to let people help me, I’ve got to let people in. Ive got to ask for help.
I realized all this over the weekend but it wasnt until this morning that it sunk right in- I realized a crucial component I was missing was reflection. When reflecting- I am grateful. Upon reflection and gratitude I am inspired. I get out of my own way- I let those around me deliver. I surpass habits Ive succumbed to before, and my loves ones surpass my expectations. I am loved. I am blessed. I am fortunate. I am, dare I say it, lucky.
I can, just like anyone, think about what I still need to do, what Im not doing compared to others, what my boyfriend, friends, parents ARENT doing, should have done. Where I should be. Where they should be. Why Im not there. Why they’re not there. Awfully negative huh? When I began to write the blog, I saw all the friggin cool things that Ive been fortunate to experience this week. Those I was surrounded by. The beauty I witnessed through art, yummy food, my happy- healthy- unique- to- me smile, silly moments with friends, thunderstorms, chilly water, wind, cuddles, music, loving family, alone time, sleep.
I ask you- if at any point you find your focus is what bad food you ate, or what workouts you didnt do, or what your partner didnt do for you, or what your parents didnt do for you growing up, or what you didnt accomplish on your to do list, or how much sleep you didnt get-Ive got a new motto for you. When in regret…reflect. It may be silly, but going through old albums, or YOUR own facebook account, old love letters, walking down memory lane with old friends, family, and spouses, unpacking an old box of trophies or crafts, looking in your closet of studly apparrell. You MAY just feel loved, blessed, fortunate, and even, dare I say it, lucky.
Here are the pictures of this weekend that inspired me to hear the birds this morning, feel the sun, like my job, and get out of my own way of letting others love me, letting me love myself.
(Beatriz and her amazing Papel Picado- so great)- At First Friday
Fountain Square Date Night- freshly shaven man and a night on the town
AMAZING Thai in Fountain Square (Siam Square)
Penrod Art Fair with Family – Biggest sis and littlest
Mirroring IMA art
Pops and two of his daughters- quality time with good beer, good music, great art, great people
A best friend since I was 3- her phone call late on Saturday night was JUST what I needed
Stand Up Paddle Board Date with a calming and fun friend at Morse
Crisp air, water, and warm sunlight
Thank YOU for being a diary, a source of inspiration and wisdom, and a reason to write. Have a great week now by letting yourself.
Until next time,
Maria “Like the Lettuce” Romaine, BIG xoxos