Old mindset: I “wish” I was skinnier. I wish I didn’t love food so much. I wish I didn’t get injured all the time. I wish I was born with a better metabolism. I’ll be perfect tomorrow and deprive for the rest of my life, so I better indulge now. No one will ever love me. I am fat. I am ugly. I don’t deserve to fight for myself. I’ll finally get the respect I deserve when I’m skinny. People will care about me when I lose weight. Processed food comforts me and I can work out some other time.
NEW/NOW mindset (and it took work friends, and still does): I am capable beyond measure. Do not be afraid of your greatness. I LOVE food and that is awesome. My strength is an absolute strength. I am my own boss and my lifestyle is ultimately my choice. I love what I look like and the way I was born. Every time I smile I see my mother. Every time I BRING IT intensely in class I feel like my father. I have fat, I am not fat. I am beautiful. No one’s opinions define me, it’s how I think of myself that affects where I’m at in life. But Im pretty sure I’m super lovable, regardless of how lean I am. I love water. I love veggies. I love to treat my body right. That involves ice cream. That involves big ass sexy salads. That involves indulging in hookah and alcohol and not feeling like a bad person. That involves fueling like an athlete and playing like a kid often.
I look different. I feel different. Because I think and act different. I highly recommend working on what will make you most you. Need to chat?! Lettuce.